March 31, 2010

I just don't know

The meeting this morning was with a very different style of person. Less about personality, more about concepts. Am I curious, adventurous, strateg1c AND skilled? I've done lots of text-based solutions (book responses), can I create microsites on the fly? Am I aware of Maslow's Hiearchy of Needs?

The whole vibe was much more cerebral. It left me feeling a bit flat. I'd still love to work there, but I don't have the feeling I nailed it. I think that's more due to his personality. I hung out afterwards chatting with two friends who are contracting there. Which meant I saw my competition go into his office. I just saw her back, but she's a trendy looking Asian woman with a BIG portfol1o. Younger than me. Probably the 'fresh' energy they need. Sigh. No one talked about next steps, but I'm thinking that meeting with the general manag3r of the company means they will decide soon?

It also means I need to design a Flash banner tonight to include in my email thank you to him. They are worried about my capabilities on-line (so am I!!!), so I have to show I can dive in.

This current job is sucking the creativity out of me.


Aimee said...

Hey, don't doubt yourself! You've done a great job working with some pretty high profile companies, who seemed to be VERY pleased with your work! Good luck!

Rachel said...

It's always hard to guess what a prospective employer is thinking, but I say they'd be lucky to have you. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

Anonymous said...

Yes, no need to keep beating up on yourself. You're needlessly expending a lot of emotional energy. Consider the pattern you're showing here. CD calls you during the ballet. Your reaction: "I didn't get the job."

You finished your interview with the new GM, and
you're dissatisfied with the experience. Then, you're chatting in the office at New Job and you see your competitor go in for her interview. She has a large portfolio. You assume she'll do better than you.

You're investing emotions in facts you make up.

That's exhausting. And unnecessary. You can train yourself to withhold the feelings until you learn the actual facts, which are usually different from what we imagine.

Aimee has it right. Even better than your design skills are your abilities to work with impossible customers. Also, you have an excellent analytic mind -- which the GM probably appreciated.
Those must be rare skills among graphic artists.

So, just rest in the LORD. Whatever the outcome, you have done well.